I’ve done a lot of research and I’ve meditated and prayed and I feel like I’m at my wits end.
I’ve started a semi-liquid diet. I don’t want to mention the name yet as I want to see how it goes. So far, if I use the products correctly and don’t sabotage myself, I lose weight. The bad news is that as soon as I’m off it, I do very poorly with food and self control.
I’m spoiled rotten and my addiction is so complete and so raw right now that I still feel right on the verge of being out of control.
Just recently I was talking to a friend who sells healthy vitamins and supplements and weight loss products and she told me that her products eliminated cravings. After the last few days I’ve realized that it’s not about cravings. I don’t have cravings, I am COMPELLED. So it’s not like you want some ice cream and so you go and get an ice cream cone. I want a lot more ice cream than that, a ton more until I can’t eat it anymore. That’s not a craving, that’s an obsession.
I don’t believe that a traditional ‘diet’ would be any more useful than this one, other than on this one, I’m not hungry at all.
I want to change my life, which includes the way I eat and what I eat, and I must stop this obsession with mostly really inappropriate food.
If you break it down – crappy food doesn’t make you smarter, happier, sexier, prettier, or happier. I often eat when I am not hungry, not even thinking about food.