Thank you so much for visiting my blog. This is a huge step for me, it makes me feel terribly vulnerable and yet I keep getting drawn to doing it, as though my verbal purge will really help me.
I haven’t been fat all my life, just all of my adult life save for a period of about one year when I exercised and dieted and lost all of the extra pounds and was at my ideal weight.
My goal is to lose 75 pounds and then see where I am.
I’m married and live in Ontario, Canada. No kids except for the four footed type in the form of a dog that I adore. I am very fortunate in that my husband is – as always – completely in my corner and is very supportive of my journey. He has his own weight issues and struggles, but he is not a saboteur and understands my struggles.
I’m striving to not give blame, to accept responsibility and I don’t wish to engage in any poor me stories as I view that as negative. There is no poor you. You are where you are because of choices.
My goal is to speak my truth, but also to entertain you, engage you in discussion and maybe inspire you in some way.
This is more of a compelling thing for me to do. As I shine my inner light on what keeps me fat, why I’ve made the choices I’ve made, why I got here, how to regain balance, etc., I feel that a part of healing, or at least understanding, is for me to write it all out and share it. I can only explain it as I feel compelled.
Some of this is going to be cringe worthy. And that’s on purpose because my honesty may assist others – of course it may turn people totally off to. I’ll gamble for now.
It’s hard for me to go ‘public’ as this keeps me accountable to readers – and to myself to a degree. I’ll be sharing the bad days and the great days, and hopefully I’ll have many more good ones than bad ones.
For anyone struggling with weight issues, I promise you that you cannot horrify me or stop me with stories of how much you’ve eaten, or what you’ve done to get your drug of choice. We could play a game where each of us could take turns horrifying the other, but there is little point in that. I accept you as you are and what you have or haven’t done. Reflection is good, but dwelling is not.
I welcome your feedback – that is I welcome respectful feedback. You can be tough, that’s okay, but I don’t tolerate disrespect in any form. Thank you for reading. I encourage you to subscribe, however I promise not to be offended if you don’t. The Universe will provide the readers who need to be here.